♥ Saturday, October 13, 2007.
hey! hahas...blogging now lors...the following paragraphs
are going to be a bit...emo lors..so.hope you guys can juz read but not to come to mie..
now..i realii feel like stuffing myself wif pillows nnd blankets..
coz..ii reali nid a shoulder to rely on..iim reali scared..
i know that i desreves that kind of grades nnd marks but isit it too far?
im thankful to god that my art is able to pass..
but..wad happen to other subjects?
im failing every each nnd other subject when i got back my paper..
the consequence is too big for mie to take it..
iim scared that i carnt take it..
when ever i got my paper.ii reali looking for ppl whu can lend mie their shoulders..
but the onli thing is that..i carnt reali understand chunting.
so wad if her maths got not wad she expected? at least she passed bout 5 marks nnd above!
but mie??
failing every single subject i got back...
she's going berserk wif onli 1 paper..wad bout mie?
wad bout the others?
have she ever thought that her tis emotions will effect on others?even if she is reali sad..she muz see ppl around her..i can understand 1 point bout her.
she carnt accept how she had done..
but wad bout mie?
sorry chunting..but that's from my bottom of my heart..
after all tis..ii reali have the thought of jumping down frm the building..
like wad patrick did..
nnd i thought.
would anybody cry for mie?
would anybody come nnd visit mie for the last time?
would anybody even care when iim not around?
reali..i noe that is wad i deserved when i didnt study..
but isn't it too much for mie to bear?
every single paper i get..iim failing..
what is tis?
all i nid is a pass..
all i hope is a pass..
all i wanted is to go to sec 2 wif ease.nd wif a pass.
now..i doubt..
im failing.
im dropping.
im useless.
im weak.
im such a slack.
how can i be a prefect?
now..iim trying my very best at every each moment nnd each seconds of my time.
to struggle to accept my grades nnd marks.
struggling to be happy.
struggling to be optimistic.
struggling to numb myself with all the cruel marks.
struggling to accept every each and single paper iim getting.
it's reali hard..nnd i reali nid help.
but,there's no one ever noe when i nid help..
so after i've posted all this things..
pls dun come to mie..
u will onli make mie cry
u will onli make mie feel worst
u will onli make mie feel that im begging for help
i onli wanted is care..nnd concern..
but no thanks..i reject.
i wan to be strong.
i wan to stand up by myself.
so..
hope i can do it!(:
coz..
i am Jinxiang.xD
but i want to thanks
ming xuan korkor
kenneth korkor
hongping lesbo
xiling meiix
nnd
SUAT KEE!
to suat kee:
it's okays...hahas.suat kee! jiayous wor!
hahas...go luck for the remaining paper that u haben get back!
if u reali kena retain,LET'S RETAIN TGT!
LET'S CRY TGT!
muhahhas..
a finally GOOD LUCK to all!
hahas..jiayous! (:
(: smiLes!
by..
the.insanity.
Jinxiang.xD
