♥ Monday, October 15, 2007.
heyy to people out tere looking at my bloggie!
NOW,YOU ARE CURRENTLY LISTENING TO
YUAN YI BU AI NI
SOLO-ED BY
ARRON YAN YALUN(:
okays.siince ii've started the post..i shall continue.
ii juz came back from lot 1..
coz reali ended up going bugis wif weien,faith,ying,juan,zhenwei nd so on.
okays..blah blah..
ALL CRAPS BOUT WEIEN SHALL SKIP!
den went off to lot 1 to makan..
went home,boarding 190.
suddenly..after weien alighted,he called mie nnd ask mie help him
keep a pouch which he had left at the bus..
i went back to the bus,took it nnd keep it.
you guys should wonder what's wrong with getting the pouch nnd stuffs?
let me tell u,it's not bout the pouch,
it's bout the suddden loneliness in me.
all my fwens who boarded 190 had alighted.
im the one who is left on the bus.[but tere's other strangers]
i can anounce here.
CHUA JIN XIANG
IS A
SCAREDY CAT!
WHY DO I SAY SO?
coz..i realise that iim afraid of everything.
no matter is humans or non-humans or stuffs..
iim reali afraid..maybe i think too much?
FRANKLY SPEAKING,
i dun dare to face myself
i dun dare to face the world
and i dun dare to face everything.
nnd..iim afraid of the word 'part'
part has 2 meanings.
1. a portion of something
2. separate?
and yea..im afraid of being alone.
separated away frm my fwens nnd stuffs..
I DUN WANNA BE ALONE!
this is the 1st time a aknowledge that im afraid of being alone.
the loneliness in me,do anybody will ever understand?
HAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHAS!
humans,if u wanna laugh..please laugh.i noe it's funni
but it's from the bottom of my heart.
back to the story,when i turned around to retrieve the pouch.
all my fwens had left.
im all alone..a sudden loneliness flushed up the whole of me.
so what if i have the songs which accomapnied mie for months?
i am now all alone.
i thought,all things have the time where they have to part.
so if iim afraid of part,why should i get together in the beginning?
friends are not forever.
all things have to part.
all things have an end.
how i wished that time will stop when i have all my friends with me,
all the happy times i had with me.but,
THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE.
it's true that the moments will live in your heart.
but does the feeling remain the same after few months?few years?few decades?
NO.
that is why iim afraid of being alone.
that is why iim afraid of loneliness.
that is why iim afraid to face myself.
coz,iim afraid that ii might lose everything..
my friends,my happy moments,the times where i had peace with my friends.
iim tired of having the loneliness in me everytime.
iim afraid of the loneliness.
it's far to scary for me to bear.
whenever i hear the song which yalun solo-ed,
i can feel his loneliness
i can feel his helpless
i can feel he's calling for help deep inside.
i can feel that he's heartbroken[that's nt my topic here]
even if that's nt true of him..
I CAN TELL YOU THIS.
he has successfully transfer the messages[top] though the song to the listener.
all i wan to convey is that.
iim afraid of loneliness,nnd feeling of helpless.
no matter how u think of me after this post,i will not change.
maybe you may think that im acting emo and stuffs.
i wanna say.
THIS IS MY BLOG AND ALL THE FEELINGS HERE ARE THE MOST
REALISTIC AND IS THE 1ST HAND INFORMATION THAT IM FEELING
RIGHT NOW.
so if u dun like it,you can shoo off.
THANK YOU!
the insanity.
Jinxiang.xD
