♥ Saturday, November 21, 2009.
the reason that im posing this is to follow up on the previous post . LOL . in the beginning i did say that i got reason for blogging tnite rites .
but just that i simply own this blog lotsa thingys coz im just too lazy to blog .
so im just making up b4 i really say the things i really want to say (?)
i also dk what im trying to say liao . HAHAHA , a bit seh liaos .
continue after choir camp ,
ytd packed for jap trip . but there's still much more to be bought and packed .
UBER TROUBLESOME ! D: argh .
sianed . totally lazy to pack . hahas .
and there's chingay on sun . ARGH , LAZY ! D:
i feel like whining sth here . but too bads , i cant .
or else im going to get that person into deep trouble coz he kena once b4
by our sch ppl sumore .
but im freaking angry on what dion did . pissed me off like crazy !
im just friends with him and he's making a big fuss abt it -.-
i cant say it in detail , but he really stepped on my nerve like mad .
okays , now to the REAL TOPIC eh ?
seriously idk that he found my blog eh !
was quite shockkk . coz i've been wondering how come the hit counter
suddenly become 200+ . no wonderr . hmmm ... lols .
but seriously i was SHOCKED . hahaha . stun for like a few mins
while reading that post that was for me .
and yea , i read it . glad that he really did took the words .
move on . (:
and WOAH , did i say i cried ? o.O i forgot liao eh .
hahas .
but seriously after reading that post , i did feel like crying . idk why .
but maybe just things dont meant to be eh ?
and glad that we're still friends ! :D
and maybe we're the same now ? o.O
coz im trying hard to move on tooos .
taking step by step slowly to gain back my peace and freedom .
coz im really very sick and tired . and really dont want to have anything to with r/s
at least he's got an easier time than me .
coz i've go no ans , nothing . trying to persuade myself , time would heal everything .
but once i see him , POOF . hardwork all gone . coz i saw him during my choir camp day 1
and he's avoiding me like crazy , ignoring me . bo chap attitude's back .
tsk , but i dont care and dont want to care . ahahs .
i mean , to be frank abt between me and him .
BUT , that doesnt mean that his miracle is here -.-
he's just a friend and a senior :D and forever wont change .
opps , too harsh . but that's the fact luhs . gotta learn to accept harsh truth .
and what he did is somehow totally what i did . HAHA .
i really see myself in him . so as i said , i totallyyy know how he feel .
sounds cool ? but feeling just sucked like crazyyyy .
and WAIT .
how in the world he know i cried ?! o.O
LOL . whatever . knowing too much gives me headacheee D:
and YEA !
i do agreeee and he SHOULD AND HAVE TO MOVE ON .
it's like FINALLY ! YAYYYY .
i wont feel guilty anymore coz anyway im the one who started smsing him
and caused his misery .
and good people like him shldnt go through those hell emotions that im going through now !
*nods* so for short , i saved a good soul after accidentally almost going to push him into hell .
LOL .
what an explaination .
but thanks ehs .
hahas , coz through him , i really gotta more people . LOL .
and yea , the feeling of being loved :D
but as you know , to choose the one you loved and the one who loved you .
most people would choose the ones they loved . so i hope he understanddd .
im glad to seee that he's trying his best to go back on track and move on .
SO KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK ! :D
if it's meant to be ur's , it's urs . if not , just let it be :D
and thank you for everything ! ;D
YAY !
now what's left , is HIM .
tskkkkkkkkkkkkkk .
seriously , i cant wait to seeee how he looks like when in prom .
coz cfm got pictures ! :D
but , ARGH . i tot i was going to get over him ?!
nah , not so soon . HAHA !
and i sound like i've got split personality D: *gaps*
he's ignoring my smses , msn .
totally bo chap . argh . feel like knocking on his door and then scream in his face .
say : HEY COWARD ! CAN U LIKE TELL ME THAT U DONT LIKE ME SO THAT I CAN JOLLY WELL MOVE ON AND FORGET SUCH A CHICKEN ASS LIKE YOU !?!
muhahaha . and b4 i leave , i'll kick him one very hard kick on his damn dick .
wtf .
he really sucks lah . i seriously rather he broke my heart now like crazy ,
than not giving me an ans then bo chap me .
tsk , bastarddddd.
going 1 year liao eh ! i so poor thing keep thinking of him non-stop . day and night .
and lot of my friends know liao . HAHA .
anyways . yea , PRAYYY HARD THAT I CAN GET OVER HIM B4 2010 .
i want to start things fresh and anew ! :D
then focus on o lvls and panic abt nth but for O LVLS !
i guess that's the end ? o.O
BYEE~
Jinxiang !
