things will never be the same .

♥ Sunday, November 01, 2009.

heys , im so sorry . damn lazy to blog hahas .
but i woke up damn early tday and i cant go back to slp ! :D
so yea , blogging now .
and it's good that i didnt go back to slp , or else im going to wake up at 1+
okays .

soooooo . my last post was on exam rite ?
yeaa . exams went quite okay , i screwed amaths paper .
and there were post exams activities .
like cyber wellness , NIE and NE surveys , SEP .
oh ! wait a min , NIE and NE are different :D
and i went to dance - hip hop SEP .
DAMN COOL EH ! but shoulders and thighs plus butt hurts .
ahahas .
sounds wrong but yea . hahas .
and I FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE 1ST DAY'S MOVES ! D:
i mean the 1st 2 8 beats i rmb . hahas , but the last one i forgot .
and we learnt moon walking on the 2nd lesson :D
DAMN COOL ! BUT DAMN DIFFICULT!
but i did tried at home , looking at mirror on my footing .
and yea , sorta did it (:

got my report book like on wed ?
damn shit lah , my class was the last 2 to gt report book back .
okokok .
eng - B4
Hcl - C5
Amaths - F9 -.-
Emaths - D7 __
comb sci - A2
comb humans - A2
Core geog - A1
if u leave out both maths , the result WOULD look nice .
damn , kena dragged by maths like shit . sianned .
sigh , gotta work harder nxt year .
but the happy thing is that my L1R4 is 14 .
and yes , im aiming for poly .
so yea . work harder for eng and maths .
and MAINTAIN FOR THE REST OF THE 3 ACE !
damn scared i dropppppp . :X

soooo , hmm.
ohoh ! holiday programme !
2 weeks for bridging .
2 days of workshop for chingay
2 days of choir concert . i mean we are viewing other people singing :D
7 days of JAPAN trip !
and 2 more mths before i offically become sec 4
4/6'1o . looks weird . but yea .

and damn sorry for the long post , i'll try to keep it short .

so ya .
went for check up ytd for the jap trip thingy .
den went out lunching with parents .
phone cant sms alphabet but num and punctuations .
pissed the damn hell outta me .
end up she going out with parents .
sianed . i want to go that halloween party de .
but den , mood gone .
and she wasnt paying attention to my smses toos .
can see that she's trying very hard .
but yea , maybe she's not used to doing the ''patching up'' job .
makes people feel even sadder . sigh .
i gave up alrdy . i dont want to care .
sorry if my mood and emotions run wild . but u cant blame me .
sometime u guys did that to me toos .
but when i did it , yea , the expressions on ur faces i would nvr forget .
digusted . tsk . how hurtful .
damn pissed over myself during ''FDC" . i want to forget everything sia .

there are no cliques anymore . HAHA .
how irony . i named that like few mths ago and i said there are no cliques .
but is i made up . so yea . i've woke up and faced the fact and im gonna give up
very tiring .
and guess what , everytime i want to try . it turned out to be a disappointment .
and im all alone . HA .
but i AM always alone . tsk . what do i expect ?
and i got the full story , it sucked .
heartache for her , but i cant do anything .
its beyond my control , and all i can do is to listen to her .
but hope she feels better after saying things to me .
but yea , it becomes a burden for me .
sigh , i dont mind but it's really hard to ignore .
coz it made me became too emotional till i cant control myself .

oh people , please leave me alone . thanks .

and yea , he did . HAHA .
he's having his major exams now .
he said he did quite okay (: YAY , good for him . hahas .
but somehow we drifted . just liddat .
i think im also tired alrdy . just let things be .
if really after his exams we still can click , that would be great ! :D
but if not , den nvm . to me , he'll always be a good senior .
i will really miss him . :D

okays , decided to change colour . COZ THIS POST IS REALLY LONG ! D:
as for the other oneeeeee .
HAHA . idk him lah . told him to give up .
just wait for time pass and he will move on (:
coz i totally know how he felt .
but i got this feeling that he would be in more of deep shit than i am . LOL
haiya , up to him . i dont want to care le .
i said whatever i can le . haha .
all i have to say is that ,
im tired and i dont want anything .
i just want to concentrate and study/mug when 2010 starts .
and dont pin hopes on me . i wont do anything .
even if things seems misleading , yea , he really think too much le -.-

anyways .
going to have o lvl chinese in like 2 weeks time .
SO SCARY ! i want to get and A ley .
den i can slack in hcl nxt year le . tsk . HAHA . (:

knowing too much things isnt good for health .
truth and reality will really hurt and people choose to listen to lies .
but guess what , we are living in reality .
truth is around . but people just choose to ignore .
but oh well , that's good anyways .
sometimes it's just so hard to accept that people would go suicidal .
and i wont :D
i'll be strong even when im standing alone .

AND I'LL MISS MY PHONE ! D:
gonna send it for repair tdayyy . i guess so . O.O

byeeeee !
SUPER SORRY FOR THE LONG POST ! D:

Jinxiang .